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Pushing Daisies

from SYNTECH+ by nostraightanswer

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The first demo I wrote for VOCALOID DAINA.

This is a post-breakup song, in the aftermath of a really harsh falling out. When I wrote it, it hadn't meant much to me at all, I was just... sort of writing a sad song to a cool beat. I hadn't realized "pushing daisies" was a metaphor for death in some capacity. When I found out, the meaning of the song became more interesting, like "dying to know" as opposed to "desperately wanting to know". Same difference, different feel, y'know?

This song wouldn't become personally relevant until after I broke up with my significant other, a year or so later. It was a rough patch, but I found myself in a thought loop too similar to the lyrics written here. Eventually, I grew to accept that I loved him unconditionally, without interest in its reciprocation, and the pain I felt from these lyrics washed away.

lyrics

I didn't think you'd mean so much
That in the end, I'd tear myself apart
When you were just a distant crush
We both could play our part

But now we're here, without too much
These empty words, so close but just too far
If only I had tried to touch your hand

Tell me how and why it all turned out this way
Tell me if we could go back, what would you say?
If loving you was my mistake
But for me all that love was all the same, well
How could you be so cruel and throw it all away?

Look at me, pushing daisies
Asking for the one true reason
Look at me, constantly
Clinging to a distant memory

Look at me, pushing daisies
I'm not ready to lay this to rest
Look at me, look at me
Look at me, pushing daisies

How could it be we dreamed so much
That we would be together till death parts?
Or was it me, not you so much?
But, you let it go so far...

I wish we hadn't got to meet
I wish I hadn't felt complete
I wish you hadn't lied to me
But everything's said and done

Even if you said this doesn't matter
You know that doesn't help at all with closure
Even if you said I must be stronger
It doesn't help me get to rest any better

I don't even know why I'm stuck on this
But I want to know why you're through with it
Look at me, look at me
Look at me...

Look at me, pushing daisies
Asking for the one true reason
Look at me, constantly
Clinging to a distant memory

Look at me, pushing daisies
I'm not ready to lay this to rest
Look at me, look at me
Look at me, pushing daisies

Look at me, pushing daisies
Asking for the one true reason
Look at me, constantly
Clinging to a distant memory

Look at me, pushing daisies
I'm not ready to lay this to rest
Look at me, look at me
Look at me, pushing daisies

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from SYNTECH+, released July 11, 2019
Music, lyrics, tuning: Samuel Robert Blakeslee (nostraightanswer)
Vocal: DAINA

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nostraightanswer Orlando, Florida

Freelance Electronic Musician by trade.
Vocal synth user by hobby.
Voice provider for Zero-G Ltd's VOCALOID4 Library, DEX. www.zero-g.co.uk/store/vocaloid4-dex-p544.php

Most well known for "Define Me". youtu.be/czHGGKr1aCQ

Notable for the quality of his VOCALOID tuning, particularly with English VOCALOID libraries, as well as musical and lyrical composition. ... more

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