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Suffocate

from SYNTECH+ by nostraightanswer

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Written just prior to and inspired by Hurricane Irma.

I wrote it as a love song, more specifically an on-off relationship. It represents a sort of power that this other person holds on the performer (in this case, me), and how that sort of relationship plays out. Ultimately, [I] accept the power that I have in the situation, but leave it sort of ambiguous; do [I] continue with this relationship or do [I] put an end to it?

lyrics

Deep breath, take the dive
Don't believe that I'll survive
And yet, you could carry on

No death, no surprise
No divine intervention could
Prove you were ever wrong

I cry to myself
Wonder why you never helped
When I needed you the most

Came out of my shell
Now I'm living through a hell
Like I'm stranded on a coast

So you dragged me out to sea
Hoist the anchor onto me
As you let it sink, and I barely blink
I'm falling underneath you

I don't wanna suffocate, no more
I don't wanna hit the ocean floor
Pounding in my chest, my very core
My heart a safety vest, but then it tore

(I don't wanna suffocate, no more)
(I don't wanna hit the ocean floor)

With a hold on nothing, I'll slip away
Face a thousand torrents and roaring rain
When it's time to face the hands of fate
Know if I fall under, I'll suffocate

My back to the wind
Just want you to let me in
All it takes is an open door

Our breath, our sin
Can we stop if we begin?
It's a pain, that we're wanting more

We say we don't mind
But we're just passing the time
Till we scatter or reform

And I know I'm flying blind
But it's just simply unkind
To be stirring up a storm

So you dragged me out to sea
Hoist the anchor onto me
As you let it sink, and I barely blink
I'm falling underneath you

I don't wanna suffocate, no more
I don't wanna hit the ocean floor
Pounding in my chest, my very core
My heart a safety vest, but then it tore

(I don't wanna suffocate, no more)
(I don't wanna hit the ocean floor)

With a hold on nothing, I'll slip away
Face a thousand torrents and roaring rain
When it's time to face the hands of fate
Know if I fall under, I'll suffocate

I don't wanna suffocate, no more
But I've already hit the ocean floor
Pounding in my chest, my very core
I'll become the eye of my own storm

I won't wait to suffocate
Cuz I now control the chains
Of my own fate

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from SYNTECH+, released July 11, 2019
Music, lyrics, vocal: Samuel Robert Blakeslee (nostraightanswer)

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nostraightanswer Orlando, Florida

Freelance Electronic Musician by trade.
Vocal synth user by hobby.
Voice provider for Zero-G Ltd's VOCALOID4 Library, DEX. www.zero-g.co.uk/store/vocaloid4-dex-p544.php

Most well known for "Define Me". youtu.be/czHGGKr1aCQ

Notable for the quality of his VOCALOID tuning, particularly with English VOCALOID libraries, as well as musical and lyrical composition. ... more

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